A day on autopilot!

Wow! Today was seriously the first day in a long time that I was on the autopilot again, and I'm really trying to put in down in words so that I can do it again, and so you guys\gals can try it! Its really has been a great week, I started a new contract for two weeks, and I'm wondering if that had something to do with it. On Wednesday I had the first day, which since recent times really took me out of my comfort zone, and I think that could be a key. So for the last few days I have been meeting new people, and performing some pretty complex tasks at work.

Today was such a revelation for me, I mean seriously - I got up early, jumped on the bus and headed to work. What has activated the autopilot, I'd be really interested to know if you guys\gals have always had issues with the eye pals, or was it a recent event that really stirred up the hornets nest. Me personally, for years they never bothered me, but I do recall at times of a super high level of stress - they became in-tolerable. Probably for the last 9 months for me I have been under so many changes in my life, so much stress that again they became in-tolerable. Today however is seriously the first day since how long that I felt like I was back on the autopilot. I am really curious, I wonder if putting myself in situations that I am uncomfortable in, somehow reduces that fear.

Its almost like fear cancels out fear maybe, today I was so busy thinking about my tasks at work, my environment and being on the alert - that I has some amazing periods in the day where i was simply observing my eye pals and not being afraid or frustrated by them. It felt a lot like the relaxation I do per day (which I had forgot yesterday) - where thoughts enter but you simply acknowledge them and move on. I am seriously excited by today, and the crazy thing is that today was all blue sky! It was so light everywhere, at work, walking around town - and I didn't even need my sun glasses. What the hell, I mean they were still there - they hadn't reduced in anyway - but it was a bit like the other day after I had my run and the car honked at me - seriously I felt nothing! how cool is that!!! I'm using myself as a bit of a guinea pig, but i would have to say that I think putting myself into a situation with some limited fear\stress - has somehow drained some fear\stress. Almost like I remember when I was working my first job, getting a lift there made the work environment itself seem a lot more intense than say if I took the bus there. Maybe its because on the bus - you leave your comfort zone the second you leave the front door - and that adaption time - leaves you not as affected by the out of comfort zone environment at work.

So, my question is - how many people reading this are actively getting out of their comfort zone - e.g either playing a sport, working a job where you are on your toes. Hmmmm, i think another big thing for me, especially getting this job was that I really regained a strong sense of independence, how this affects my thinking towards my eye pals is beyond me. But for me this is some really exciting stuff, just to think that I don't have to rely on an operation, some stupid opthomoligst, putting of happyness now in the hope of some future op\technique. To think that all of us going through this - could actually have a say in this! Make it so the impact on your own life is completely cut down to size - well words really can't describe how happy this makes me. So its back to the drawing board, Im going to test this out and see if I can figure out exactly what needs to happen to get this autopilot on. Try it yaself and please email me and tell me how ya get on. Sounds there is something we can do :D