Hey all!! Thanks for keeping on reading this blog, I've had some great emails recently and am really pleased that we've got a place to talk about this stuff and to get some helping tips to sort this out for good! I was recently in the United States hence my lack of updates but now I am home I thought I would post some new tips and things I've figured out!!
More and more I've been having more good days than bad days - I've really been trying to get to the core of why they are such a hassle and they way I see it ... is that is can become quite a vicious cycle ... the fact you have these eye occupants, can get you down, and then because you are down, they bother you more, and they fact that they are bothering you ... ... ... ... etc etc until you do what i do is either hit a wall or enter a comfortable blind rage!! Doh!!! :D
One silly thought came into my head the other day, we all have super vision!! How incredible that our vision is so amazing we can see tiny paricles on a cellular level, what an achievement!! hahah .. anyway thats not my big news tip but it made me laugh, next time someone says whats your deal, say hey I'm doing great with this supervision!! haha!
Anyhow, the revolution came for me really when i was in America, I kept thinking all these thoughts before I went over, how much they were going to bother me, how if I went over the grand canyon in a helicoptor they would take away all my enjoyment ... talk about working myself into a state - but you know what, if i was to say the impact they had on me over there for the whole three weeks, amazing it probably clocked in a 0.65% impact.... this really had me curious.
You know what the difference was, over there i was looking forward to reading USA today, looking forward to the late night shows, looking forward to trying great burgers, looking forward to trying some new ice creams, doing what I wanted to do!
I was in such a positive frame of mind, its like the floaters and everything didn't even register - now Im not saying they were not there. I'm saying that the sting had been taking out of them, I remember at one point noticing them and my reaction was 'WeeeeEEeee' ... i mean serously, what a turn around.
Coming home however i seemed to fall back into old habits, I was insanely curious. Had I just found the cure to taking the sting out of them??? could being in a different state of mind and knowing that this constant barrage would be basically dis-armed - I mean that is seriously cool! ... and I know you can do it as much as I can.
But you know what I had to do, was to stop thinking about operations, seeing other people, basically putting my life in other peoples hands, my happyness. It mine to do whatever i want with it, and if I start going down that worry path then the simplest answer is i need to do something I love, i need to get excited about something, because thats what will block the hit, thats what will take out the sting.
Not to be morbid but no one is going to have this challenge, we will all be six feet under one day - probably in another place getting our scorecards read to us - so this is not a forever kind of thing, and I think getting out of that forever thinking frees you to replace is with some good ol' fashion fun!! some great times ... even when I've received emails from people, I detect a way of writing that seems a bit down, I mean all you have to do is look at my earlier posts to see what that is like. Talk to someone who has found out the key to dealing with these and they will probably have a lot more jokes in there, and some humour! ... the magic is\way is that human beings are the ultimate adaptable animal. We can adapt to anything, out brains and a million times more powerful than what they get used for, there is a simple program we can run to get us out of a bad space, and its worth a shot !! :D
Look its just a thought\theory Ive had recently and good and bad days come along, and when your in a bad space, you just have to acknowledge it , but don't let it suck ya down , if you look around there will be a life presever floating (no pun intended!) in the water right next to ya, but if ya keep looking down you'll never see it! I'm trying to get back to my thinking in America, where seriously I was so damn excited about everything, I was so amped that nothing could break through that feeling, it was too strong... if I can do it, you can do it!
Again to re-iterate, i really think we can do this on our own, and we don't have to put outselves as people on a shelf until someone comes out with some kind of physical cure - a mental frame of mind will do the trick!
What doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger right - I think we are probably all body builders by now!!! hahaha!!
Anyway everyone, please let me know how ya get on!!! and if you need a vent, then thats ok too!!
Your awesome!
Paul
Friday, 26 October 2007
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man i understand what you are going through..
i have had floaters since i was like 14 years old..
i am 25 right now and i am a medical doctor..
i have studied my butt off trying to find the cure for tghem..but all options are pretty unsafe ..
i used to be upset about seeing floaters all day till the time i saw a girl with diabetes...man she couldnt even see my face..
that day i realized enough is enough...
just forget about em..
the moment i start following them i forget about them at all...i leave my searching there and then..
to hell with them..
i have even named them..they are my buddies in my eyes who are with me everywhere even when people have left me out in the cold..
take care man and dont think too much!
Hi,
I'm have floaters since 2005 and I have KC (a corneal desorder)in both eyes.The floaters emerged after a small accident with contact lenses.I use many eye drops for KC.The Ophthalmology
said to me that the vitreous detachment cause floaters not eyedrops to KC. But I was afraid to continue to use them and the floaters problem gets worse, because my visual acuity in the right eye is very bad because KC and there is no forecast of transplantation of cornea for me. I live here in Brazil and the transplant can take several years. In my left eye visual acuity is better but it is eye I have many floaters. I am definitely a person with no luck,ehehehe... Sorry for the English, I had to use the Google translator to write this text. Bye
Paul; I really like your Floatbusters bit - very creative. I can identify with your comments about floaters. I have had them since I was 13-14 and I'm now in my 60's. Like the rest of the body, floaters do not get better with the passage of time. In fact the opposite is true. They used to bother me and frustrate me and distract me. Over time I have learned to live with them. I am a mathematical type and I long ago realized my vision is degraded by floaters, but only to a small degree. I consider that my vision is at 98%-99% - very good but definitely not perfect. I decided that 98%-99% is pretty good and I should spend my time thinking about more important matters. I can play sports, I can do my work, I can see my children and grandchildren - what else do I really need from my eyes. Would I like to have perfect vision - hell yes. But what I have is good enough. If I was a surgeon or a pilot, then the problem would certainly be a larger one for me. Over the years, it seems that when I'm locked in on a project, I don't notice the floaters. I notice them the most when I'm relaxed and looking at a clear background like the sky or the ocean. They annoy me even to this day, but I've reconciled myself to the fact that I have these floaters. It's sort of like always having a very tiny pebble in your shoe - it doesn't hurt and it doesn't keep you from walking or running, but you sure as hell know its there. I hope these comments are helpful or at least mildly interesting to you. I guess I have seen and experienced problems in my life that are so much greater than floaters that I've learned to put them in their place. One other thing you might find interesting since you mention a possible medical cure at some point. About 4 years ago I noticed a sudden large increase in the number of floaters in one of my eyes and flashes of light in that eye. I immediately went to an opthamologist who diagnosed the problem as a torn retina. He sent me that same day to a retinal surgeon. The surgeon did a good job and repaired the torn retina with a laser procedure that same day. The only residual problem was that there had been some bleeding into the vitreous of my eye as a result of the tear. That dried blood had the effect of a huge floater that was absolutely impossible to ignore. I was told much or all of the dried blood would eventually evaporate, but that was not my experience. While some blood did evaporate, much of it remained as a VERY large floater. My opthamolgist told me to learn to live with it as the only remedy would be a cut and sew operation. No way was I going to do that. But it turns out there are 2 opthamologists in the U.S. that specialize in a laser surgery procedure to remove large floaters. After researching the matter, I decided to roll the dice and had the laser surgery done earlier this year. So far I am very pleased - the large floater is gone and my vision is back to the way it used to be before the torn retina - just a bunch of random floaters that I can deal with. I hope all this is of interest to you. I don't mean to minimize the aggravation of floaters. There are no mind games to let you forget about them based on my 50+ years of experience. You just have to put them in their proper place - a minor degradation of your vision. Best wishes for a happy holiday season. Pete
Awesome site Paul. I have floaters, got them all of a sudden (in both eyes), I’m 21. They really aren't that bad when you put them in perspective. So true, you have bad days and good days, sometimes when I get carried away with something, like a good gym session or spending time with good friends I don't see them at all. I'll be a fully qualified solicitor soon, and will have many years of reading ahead of me. I may have a victrectomy later in life if I decide. But it's up to you. It's important for people with floaters not to feel trapped. People can always have their floaters removed if they wish, no matter how few and benign they may be.
All the best.
Lam
Altamash.
What names did you give to your companions?
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