How has it been two months!! haha! great news!

Hey all!! Thanks for keeping on reading this blog, I've had some great emails recently and am really pleased that we've got a place to talk about this stuff and to get some helping tips to sort this out for good! I was recently in the United States hence my lack of updates but now I am home I thought I would post some new tips and things I've figured out!!

More and more I've been having more good days than bad days - I've really been trying to get to the core of why they are such a hassle and they way I see it ... is that is can become quite a vicious cycle ... the fact you have these eye occupants, can get you down, and then because you are down, they bother you more, and they fact that they are bothering you ... ... ... ... etc etc until you do what i do is either hit a wall or enter a comfortable blind rage!! Doh!!! :D

One silly thought came into my head the other day, we all have super vision!! How incredible that our vision is so amazing we can see tiny paricles on a cellular level, what an achievement!! hahah .. anyway thats not my big news tip but it made me laugh, next time someone says whats your deal, say hey I'm doing great with this supervision!! haha!

Anyhow, the revolution came for me really when i was in America, I kept thinking all these thoughts before I went over, how much they were going to bother me, how if I went over the grand canyon in a helicoptor they would take away all my enjoyment ... talk about working myself into a state - but you know what, if i was to say the impact they had on me over there for the whole three weeks, amazing it probably clocked in a 0.65% impact.... this really had me curious.

You know what the difference was, over there i was looking forward to reading USA today, looking forward to the late night shows, looking forward to trying great burgers, looking forward to trying some new ice creams, doing what I wanted to do!

I was in such a positive frame of mind, its like the floaters and everything didn't even register - now Im not saying they were not there. I'm saying that the sting had been taking out of them, I remember at one point noticing them and my reaction was 'WeeeeEEeee' ... i mean serously, what a turn around.

Coming home however i seemed to fall back into old habits, I was insanely curious. Had I just found the cure to taking the sting out of them??? could being in a different state of mind and knowing that this constant barrage would be basically dis-armed - I mean that is seriously cool! ... and I know you can do it as much as I can.

But you know what I had to do, was to stop thinking about operations, seeing other people, basically putting my life in other peoples hands, my happyness. It mine to do whatever i want with it, and if I start going down that worry path then the simplest answer is i need to do something I love, i need to get excited about something, because thats what will block the hit, thats what will take out the sting.

Not to be morbid but no one is going to have this challenge, we will all be six feet under one day - probably in another place getting our scorecards read to us - so this is not a forever kind of thing, and I think getting out of that forever thinking frees you to replace is with some good ol' fashion fun!! some great times ... even when I've received emails from people, I detect a way of writing that seems a bit down, I mean all you have to do is look at my earlier posts to see what that is like. Talk to someone who has found out the key to dealing with these and they will probably have a lot more jokes in there, and some humour! ... the magic is\way is that human beings are the ultimate adaptable animal. We can adapt to anything, out brains and a million times more powerful than what they get used for, there is a simple program we can run to get us out of a bad space, and its worth a shot !! :D

Look its just a thought\theory Ive had recently and good and bad days come along, and when your in a bad space, you just have to acknowledge it , but don't let it suck ya down , if you look around there will be a life presever floating (no pun intended!) in the water right next to ya, but if ya keep looking down you'll never see it! I'm trying to get back to my thinking in America, where seriously I was so damn excited about everything, I was so amped that nothing could break through that feeling, it was too strong... if I can do it, you can do it!

Again to re-iterate, i really think we can do this on our own, and we don't have to put outselves as people on a shelf until someone comes out with some kind of physical cure - a mental frame of mind will do the trick!
What doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger right - I think we are probably all body builders by now!!! hahaha!!

Anyway everyone, please let me know how ya get on!!! and if you need a vent, then thats ok too!!
Your awesome!

Paul